Rachael

2011-02-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

On 7/2/2011
Firstly , happy chinese new year ! hahax.. so many things to busy with during new year hahahx.. but 1 thing for sure is that i will have to make a tough decision... during visiting , 1 of my relatives accidentally said out that she saw my bf.. but my family do not know about it ... HOW !!! than i went home , got questioned by my mother ... she told me this"your father trust you alot , if he knows you break this trust , he will be very hard-broken... " i know ... but , i still like him ... i don know how ..GOD , i pray to you .. can you give me a solution which do not hurts both parties , i rather be the one being hurt than see the both of them being hurt caused of my stupid mistakes.. I am not saying that being you is a mistake , but the choice of being quiet... i seriously at a lost now..Should i give up on this relationship ? Should i continue to bluff and pretend that there is nothing ? I really don know what to do !! Heavenly father , this is the 1 time that really pray to you..Please give me a solution to this problems... i am really tired of thinking of so many things ... haiz..life suck !!

The hope of being with you forever is now gone..but i wish to stay by your side..

2010-12-30T01:06:00.002+08:00

On 30th december 2010,

Haix... sian .. it seems like this is the only place where i can really complained and write whatever i want... In a society like Singapore , money is all its matter .. For those rich people , they might feel that money is not everything and spent it on useless stuff .. But for those not so wealthy like me , money is everything althrough people say money don bring you happiness.. Today , i realised if you do not have money , nothing can be done ... Seeing my parents leading a tough life , having to tolerate friends and relatives comment ... Especially my grandfather , bringing up all my uncles and aunties , just by asking them for a merely $100 , they have to scold him untill like a begger .. What kind of shit is this !! He needs the money to see the skin doctor and not spend it on luxury goods or what ... All you guys know is to scold him whenever he ask for money ... Its a common thing to give money to your parents when they are old ... Why must you all still scold him and you guys only give $50 each month ... Other people gives few hundreds ..... seriously , sometimes i feel that althrough we are a family , but whatever is done is like a stranger ...Money can really changed a person's life... I hope that in this world there is no such thing as money ..so that everyone can lead a equal life and not compare around... haiz... Also , i have been skipping canoe polo trainning for the past few days , so guilty but i really don know what has happen to me ... Can someone tell me please , i need encouragement and love ....This few days , mummy came back hot tempered , always scold ... I suddenly feel that whatever i am doing is useless cause i can no longer get the same encouragement which i have gotten during secondary school ... Maybe it is just my thinking... School work has been pilling up , i have no idea how to clear it when there is so little time ... haix...seriously , life's suck at this point of time .... i wan to cry it out !!!!!!!!!!

Hoping you can understand me and be my support just for this period...=(

2010-11-27T00:00:00.003+08:00

On 27Nov 2010
, Today had a good talk with my friend... seriously , maybe i am taking myself too seriously !! Thank you deardear for supporting me !! ahahax... i have decided to make my POly life a different level which is enjoyable and enriching !!hahax... for the past few months , i have encoutered a number of things which help me to understand what kind of world i am living in . All this experiences make me realised what are true friends and how a person can totally outcast you from their group for their own benefits ... It seems that only true friends which really care about you stay with you through thick and thin , be it you are sad or angry or even when you are being left behind ! So far , i didnt notice that i am such friend .... I really thought i was alone , but actually i was not .. hahahx... After all this experiences , it make me into a differnet person ..at first , i was badly affected by all of you guys stupid friend , i told myself "why do i even bother to apologise and still stick to you guy?"Than , i found out that actually , i can just enjoy without haveing to suffer in silence...Crying middle of the night , even till the extend of breaking down ...i feel stupid having to torture myself for useless things .... Deardear , what you told me about wasting my time on crying over them ...I finally realised what does that mean !! I have really realised how much time i have wasted on crying... I will become a much better person not going to care much about nonsense stuff...I WANT TO DO WELL AND GET INTO THE DIRECTOR'S HONOURS LIST !! i will prove to you guys whoever is looking on me !! hahahx... i will be more motivated now !!

I love you !! would you cry , if you see me crying ?? Would you save my soul tonight ?? would you be my hero???

2010-11-17T00:55:00.003+08:00

On 17 nov 2010 ,

haiz.. things have happen till this stage ! i don know wat can i do now.. seriously , why do you even bother to do this crap if you know you will hurt them so badly ! seriously , i hope that you really mean wat you say by not doing again ..Do you know how i feel when i was the first to be pin pointed at when i am not even the 1?? At the time when mummy cried , i don know how to react , this is the first time i have seen her so badly affected. Daddy also . I don know whether you side you or just ignore or help ... everything just down to MONEY !! it really can cause a person to resort to doing anything just to obtain money .. At that time , i really wished that i have money so that i can give to my parents .. i felt useless when i couldn't not do anything but just sit there and listen ... I promise i will one day earn alot of money and repay you for grooming me ... haiz... sian..why does this world uses money which can harm people and causes them to do bad things ..No wonder people say that money harms a person and cause them to be crazy ...haiz... how i wish i can have a world where no money is involved and happiness is always there..

i hope you are here to lend me your shoulder to cry on..really lost !

2010-10-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

On 10/10/10
Today was super tired after working for so long ..thought maybe i should just tkae a break from work..but after wat happen , i wished that i can work 24 hours so that i can avoid all this crap !! WTH !! is it my fault ?? why do i every time have to suffer all this crappy nonsense !!! having hair all over your bed , does it mean that you have to slp with it?? FUCK !!! i suddenly feel that maybe it is my fault , but after you came in and shouted saying"does it mean that you earn a little money , we all have to see your black face "... It suddenly hurt me so deeply that i feel that i am not part of this family no matter what i am trying to do , it seems that i cant blend in ... is it my fault to make noise when my bed is dirty by your stupid hair and being shouted cause i wanted my maid to change the bed sheet !! i feel worse than a maid !! WTF !! do you all even consider my feelings ... Why whenever i am injured or sick , nobody seems to care and when he is sick !! everyone rush to concern like he is dieing !! WTH !!! i hate it !! why so biased !!! suck !!!!!Everything he do is right , what i do is wrong !! Why i even trying so hard to study and do my best ... even working during holidays when i can be like other people just rot at home !! sian... i suddenly feel that home is just like a place where i can come back to sleep only... All the happiness , excitement of coming home is gone !! I dread going home and hearing complain , talking about other things ..not even 1 of you bother to ask and concern about me .... i hate this life !!!!!!

Hoping that i can be with you and you would comfort me ... i really starting to lose myself ...

2010-09-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

On 14 sept 2010,
Thought that i can meet you since you do not have school... but end up , waited till 2 plus when you finally wake up .. Didn't meet ... Its'okay since i thought i could have just waited for another 2 days where we can have fun ! End up , at night , you asked me if whether the zoo trip could be cancel ... Do you know how much my heart was in pain at that time ... I told you before if you cant do it , don do it !! Remember the previous time where we just gave away the movie tickets , how much i was in pain and how i told you i don wished for it to happen !! WHY !! Why must you do this to me !! Fine , maybe i was being selfish but i cant seems to just forgive you ...Maybe i need some time .. This is like tearing open the wound that have recovered ! I have a mixture of feelings , whether to angry , disappointed , sad.... I don know !! i really don know ! Why am i even wasting my time crying over it !! I feel that i am being played around like a stupid thing ! It really feels terrible !! WTH am i thinking !! Thinking of the different food that i will be making , how much fun , so many pictures to take !! It seems that my dream has just been dashed , i seriously don know when to believe you ..Maybe you might think that i am selfish to only think of myself but i have waited long enough ... Neo prints , Zoo outing , Picnic , Rollerblading ... So many things that we once said we were going to do but was lack in time ... Now ?? So much time but .... maybe i should just forget about it ... I truly don understand you ... When do you really say what you mean ! God , please lead me i seriously don know what is there for me to do ...... Cried...
You have hurt me deeply this time =(

2010-09-10T22:30:00.004+08:00

On 10 sep 2010,
Today , went to deardear house for hari raya !!! hope you enjoy your new year !!hahax..than went home to family day !!! than here we go to the alive gallery ahahhax..
hahax...actually it was quite fun hahax.. thanks to mummy company for giving us tickets to the Alive gallery !! hahax...

More pictures can be found on my facebook pages hahax..hehez...

Just heard that alot of things have happen !! WTF !!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes i wish that all this can just fucked off !!!! get on with my peaceful life !! It so irritating that i cant do anything when my loves one all being bullied right in front of my own eyes !! Its really fucking irritating to hear about it !! You guys just wait till i have grown up and have the ability to do things !! I make sure you guys will repay for what you have done 10 times more !!! DOUBLE FACES PERSONS !!!!!!!!!!! FUCKED OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wished i can talk to you about it !!

2010-08-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

On 13 aug 2010
hahaz... just 3 more days to my birthday !! doubt anyone will notice except you ..hehehx... ahaahhax.. so sian ... has been unwell for the past few days ...anyone free to go out on MOnday can sms me hahH ??? hahahax... i doubt so hehex.. kk i going to play my baking life !!! hahahax... bye bye

Looking forward to my Vans shoes ..hehex..=)

2010-08-02T23:19:00.001+08:00

on 2 aug 2010

I HATE THE STUPID FLESH ON MY BODY!!!!! I HATE IT !!!!

sorry for venting my anger on you... i am really scare although its a minor wan...

2010-07-30T00:14:00.003+08:00

On 29 July 2010 , today is our 29th anniversary !!

Thought maybe i could spent some time with you on this special day ! But , everything is not going smoothly (presentation , friends etc) ..haiz... After school went to Tampines Mall to play arcade while waiting for time(4 hours) to pass as Sport Clubs only starts at 6. CSA Presentation was badly done , i admit that i didn't contribute much but i took the initiative to ask..Why don you guys give me a chance? Following by Sports Club , i always wanted to play with you but..Too Bad !!! After Sports club ended , it was about 9 plus , waited for the stupid 518 express bus for so long !! Went to meet him at Elias Mac to spend some time , end up we started to fight ..Slowly , tears came rolling down my face , i couldn't control it ... IT just came and came and came ..Maybe i am hurting too much by keep quiet ... Facts came to me , that actually i am not enjoying Polytechnic life as it seems..Maybe you are right , i only judge a person by it fraws and not its good point... but it just come to me each time i make friends , i would be more cautious on what their characteristics and more... Reasons mainly , i do not wish to be with the wrong company which could lead me astray...sorry but that is what i think..maybe i am wrong, maybe i should just make friends for the fun of making friends ..What touches me the most was when your hand came and allowing me to cry on your shoulder .. It makes me feel that actually i am not alone ...actually i still have friends which cares about me , a good BF which cares like you do.. when you tell me that , i have been doing stupid things , and you were only angry with me ..I really feels that i am very fortunate !! i think i should just take a break from school work !! A break from all those hurtful and frustrating problems..Maybe i should just look at it at a postitive perceptive.I am really very tired !!!

Thanks for accompanying when i broke down !! Happy 29 months anniversary !!(Double 29 !!bet you didnt notice it )

2010-07-27T22:16:00.004+08:00

On 27 june 2010, today was brother's birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!..HAHAHX..

haiz...so many things happen in school , got a feeling that i will be an outcast soon...haiz... really feel sucky now leh ... haiz.. its not like i am being sensentive , but maybe , i really wished to be good friends with you guys .Please!!! haiz... Didnt meet you for a number of days..haiz... injured my knee at the wrong time sian... really stupid wan wear the knee guard!!! haix... i now really don feel like going to school ...SCHOOL SUCKX!!!. school sucks without friends i really wan go back to secondary school !!!!!! i missed all my friends in CORAl !!! i wished time can be rewind!!!haiz.. i really wished i can improve my relationship with you guys !!! Please stop avoiding me plsease... i wan friends and not be an outcast !!! haiz..feel like crying now !!! haiz...feeling really like a stupid fool =(

wished you could be by my side now. wished all this can lead to a happy ending..wishes , wish, wished

2010-07-15T21:32:00.002+08:00

on 15 july 2010 , had a bad cried just now!!! trying to wake up from a little girl to a mature young lady...maybe i should just let it end here but i cant bear for it to happen ...how ??? can anyone tell me or pls wake me up!!! since i have entered poly , i feel i have become a different person...a totally different wan!! but i cant really control , sorry for making all the trouble .. sorry for being selfish by not letting you away from me..you can say i am selfish but i really can bear to let you go...sorry ... i will try my best to be more mature and not so sensitive towards you ...sorry.. i know i am changed!!! this 2 years to you might me like hell , maybe i am selfishly enjoying myself.. now its your turn ...sorry i will try to be a real girlfriend now... please give me some time ... i believe i can do it ... i am just not able to adapt to it yet but soon... i promise ... i will always love you

2010-07-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

10July 2010

On 10 july 2010 , had a fight today with someone in my class... she can shout at me and next minute sms me...WTH!! haahx...this few weeks had to rush with project...felt so relieve after submitting it....sian... i seen so many couples breaking up..the fear of breaking up with me hunts me ... i don know how i will be like ..haiz..tomoro going to Compass Point to do Ba projects... going to sleep soon.....hahax..this few days haven seen you , felt that we are actually missing each other more..so i think its better to not meet everyday , maybe than we will start to cherish each other..hahax...joking hahahax.. kk i gtg chiong project alread ...bye, don miss me ...silent reader!!!hahahx... loving you even more when not meeting you .=)

2010-07-01T23:40:00.003+08:00

On 1 July 2010 , haiz..stuck with this stupid headache... Has been falling sick and worse this few days , miss out so many things in school. sian..i think i will have a hard time catching up alread...sian...just online , than have to find 20 people to help me do survey , tomorrow still need to go around to do...i am going to die already ....80% left... after charging to 100% hahahax..hehex..met him today and finally passed him the present...Hope you like it..i spent alot of time on it...But , you like no reaction leh..to shy to ask you about it too...hahx...rushing off to recharge!!!!!Hope you like Wat i have given you ...

2010-06-28T22:19:00.003+08:00

On 28th June2010 , OMG!!!!!! i am fucking stressed up ...haiz...how to do the stupid econs project!!!!!!!!!!!!! suck la .... fuck!!!!!!!! huh!!!!!!!!!!!!how how how how!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! die alread la...stress stress stress and more stress..... haiz.. tomoro is anniversary ..but i no money buy things for you sorry/....=( but i love you forever

2010-06-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

On 23 th june , haiz..having gastric ...shit la...haiz.. didnt want to disturb you...muz get well soon k , i know you wanted to accompany me but i just cant bear to see you in pain and stillasked you to accompany me..That would be so selfish of me...sian...get back all my mid sem test reulst , for my Ba i get 43/45, my CSA 25/50(just pass) , Comm skills =B...haiz.. sian..i believe i can do better...i promise i will be more hardworking to achieve a better grade...i will promise you ...kk i gtg alread..haiz...lots of tutorial and projects to do...JIAYOU!!!!! I CAN DO IT !!!Hoping you can faster recover.

2010-06-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

On 18 June 2010 , today just finish morning shift ,...super tired but somehow i got emotionally breakdown and tears were dropping when i was on the way home...i thought of meeting you cause you said that i can only cry when i am with you..but i just can't control...haiz... when i reach home , auntie start to nag say i at night sleep late and disturb untill her when now she sleeping like a dead pig la...haiz... stupid wan lor...but i still got this question: why do people treat you better only when they need your help??is this true??? to me , all this while , i am treated this way..it really sucks la..luckily i have my guardian angel to guide and comfort me through..you know who are you haahx..hehex.. i know you are reading it haha...so happy...THANK YOU!!!!!!!love you lots hahax... okay... i am going to do my stupid CSA excel project alread ...BYe.... i will become a stronger girl and not defeated by all your nonsense anymore!!!!!!!!! Needing you by my side now...

2010-06-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

On 11th June 2010 , had a fight again as me being the idiort that started it..haiz..wat the hell is happening to me??suck sia... can someone beat me so that i can wake me up pls..now even i don know what am i ???actually i was wondering why i am trying so hard when people are noet even noticing me..Why am i even trying??? haiz.. At work , suck. At home , suck. Even on the way home suck..i am really sorry to the person that i have hurt..sorry..haiz...while typing this , i had nose bleed and shaking hands...what is fucking wrong with me now!!! i just hate myself..suck..tomoro working full shift , don know whether i can do it..haiz..wishing you were with me now.

2010-06-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

On 8th june 2010 , now at the library chiong project ..haiz..the bench super hard make my butt pain la..haha... w came from school (POM Project).. YEsterday just went to work at TOY R US ..hahax... met shome shity customer la...throw card , throw wallet ..think they very big ar... some people think that they are very big and they can do what they want...stupid or wat ..cannot just wait patiently meh , cannot than don buy la ..who ask you to buy !!!!! suck lor...
hahax..but yesterday received 1 very sweet sms hahax... my mood went from bad to good hahax... hehex..haha... i don know why each time you sweet to me , i thought it was not you hahax... maybe that is what so special about you..sometime fierce , sometimes sweet , sometimes caring hahax.. i guess it is interesting hahax... hahax..kk i go do project alread if not cant finish in time...tomoro got consultation with Mr Ng = Waking up early .hahahx... never mind , its for my own ...hahax.. see ya .... I love you even more now!

2010-06-07T00:02:00.002+08:00

On 6th June 2010, today went to celebrate grandfather 70th birthday...went to auntie house and meet u with the rest....than the adults went to marina bay...teenagers stay at home at slack....during that period , my mind was thinking of you ... remember the question that i asked you about , i was so afraid that it was not the answer that i wanted..i asked myself ,what will happen if your answer was no..what am i supposed to do... than came your reply , it was a yes.but is that you true answer, its not that i doubt you but alot of thing just went through my mind..Am i bringing you too much trouble?Am i a lousy companion? its just i lacking confident in myself..sorry for irritating you the past few days..sorry..After that , we went to the restuarant with the cake..hahax...had fun singing and eating haahx..i think i become fat alread..hahax.. now i am having more fun listening to your voice and typing this...hahax..k i gtg alread..have work tomoro...nervous about going back to toy r us to work..hahax..nites
I love you forever.

2010-06-01T19:28:00.005+08:00

On 1st June 2010 , finished my Microecons paper... went to study with my classmater(jane , jeannette and gladsy ) ..actually didnt really study ..than we went to the fish pond there to play the swing...hahax...remind me of secondary school times where we are so bonded...than waited for you patiently but things happen ..i still don understand why it is my fault... haiz...what makes you think i don wan to be with you ...ONly you got bad day, how other me?? i just screwed up my paper ...suck.... Seriously , i didnt did it on purpose....it really hurts my heart... i thought we will have a fun time tomoro ...maybe its the opposite where we don even meet... was looking forward to it ..but now haiz... i am at a lost ...please tell me what i have done wrong... **** la...haiz... you didnt even realised that i was trying to cheer you up rite...Fine i admit its my fault SORRY! i really tried my best....Today is a sucky day!!!!!!!!!!! wishing we could be like last time...

2010-05-31T23:30:00.002+08:00

On 31 may 2010 , haiz.. its the end of my Principles of management mid sem test.however still got 3 more papers to go..guess i am still coping well in school althrough i broken down quite a number of time..haiz... but now i am sure that this is what i want . what i want for my future... i will continue to work hard and try my best... thanks to all those who supported me when i was down... Now , i finally realised who are my real friends which would stick with me when i am in need... thanks guys... Some far during POlytechnie life , it is very tiring and projects are pilling up ...but luckily you were there to support me..thanks to you that i never gave up... i will try my hardest so that i would not have regrets and make my parents proud..the thought of them smiling is wonderful as i cant really help much ..hahax... As for me and him , i tihnk we are both coping well and i really apprecciate his help , scoldings , encouragement...i think it is a honour to be yours ... hahax..hehex...loving you always

2010-02-10T12:07:00.004+08:00

hello.....so long never update....this few months hav been busy...haiz... everything isnt going smoothly ..here i am stuck with this fucking pain....suck... haiz... i really missed the class... kind of miss you guys bu cant meet cause almost everyone is working.... haiz... i really don know if wat i have done is a right choice....it seems that we have drifted apart for each other... how???tell me HOw???? i really ar a lost of wat to do with us although this few days we didnt fight and you tried to be nice... somehow i have this weird feeling that once we entered poly... we would be different maybe you would fall for someone else...maybe i should have more trust in you..i will try give you my utmost trust ...i promised...hope that we would last long....love you deeply always...

2009-09-16T14:36:00.001+08:00

todae!!!!

SORRY......i didnt know i would pissed you off....SORRY

2009-08-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

todae....
hahax..thanks to allhahax...really had a wonderful birthday..it was so unforgetable hahax...really missed you guys when we graduate.....hahax...finally knew wat was BOON HING lover..,,IT WAS YUAN FONG!!!!hhaz....really enjoyed it ...love you guys always...thanks for all the present !!!!hahahx...muackx....

2009-08-12T11:26:00.001+08:00

toDae!!!!

hi .....i back liao hahax...solong never blog... haiz..yesterday had a war infact is 2 war la one outside and one at home...siazn..sometimes i wish that the world have no unhappiness.... Fought with him over nothing maybe taht is the way we communicate??? Don think so ba.. i guess i just missed him too much ...he went malaysia for 4 days and i almost went crazy....sobx..sobx... shcool work is darmed stressed liao ...heard that we will get our O level chinese result by there 2 days.... so scary...hope i can get a decetn grade ba...hahax.. O ya , Yesterday was PAPA wong 's birthday !!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
hahax...now slacking at home haahx..didnt went to school cause later got appointment at KK hospital...know the way there????hahax..never mind i shall find my way there ahahx... hopes everything going to be ok now!!!! Sorry if i have upset you sorry....hahax...k i shall blog again now going to watch TV liao ...so long never watch TV alread hahax...Deprived hahahz..BYE BYE don miss me ....BYE muacxk...

2009-06-29T19:05:00.004+08:00

todae!!!
first day of schh,,,,BORING!!!! Actually was going to get a new phone today...somehow it fails....feeling depressed now....the old phone that he lend me has broken down...leaving me with not even 1 phone...haiz...i really hate this!!!!! SUXK!!!!!!!!!!now rusing F&N!!!!!!!! Going crazy and depressed now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-23T14:50:00.003+08:00

todae....
I HATE TODAY!!!!!!SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I HATE YOU FOR BLUFFING ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALWAYS GIVE ME FALSE HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THE FEELING SUCKX...(you just don care about me not even a call...must i also be the wan to call you!!!!!!!!!)

2009-06-03T18:33:00.002+08:00

he have changed....why does very goodbye leads to a fight...does the problem lies with me????may be onli god knows....darmed hurt....it suck.........=(

2009-06-01T17:48:00.003+08:00

todae....

hi people!!!!!!!!!!hahax... finally mid-year over liao...sianz.... i failed some of my subject.....todday just finish o level chinese hahax...hehex...then went movie with my deardear to watch night at the mus 2 hahax..hehex... not bad la the show hahax...tomoro start school again sian..hahax... last words liao...going to start to chiong for o levels liao hahax... bye bye don miss me !!!! muackx..

2009-04-15T16:27:00.004+08:00

picture with Vanessa hahax..

picture with coach David...hahax..

picture with vanessa and Coach DAvid....

PIcture with crazy elaine jie jie hahax..

picture with elaine . junie and Wan ling hahax..

picture with desiree..hahax..act cute!!!!hahax..

todae....

supposed to go to the hospital to see Teacher Farah.....heard that she was admitted to hospital due to kidney stone.....hahax...Get WEll SOOn!!!!hahax... going to upload the pictures that i never upload for long time hahax...hahax..

2009-04-11T12:52:00.002+08:00

todae...
went up at 7 plus....was about to go for band but suddenly remembered that there was physic class....so i went for physic class instead....haiz... have no mood o do anything....wanted to send her through her last journey but i thinks it is a little too late....

YEsterday...
Went to pray my grandfather in the afternoon.... then sudenly there was a phone call from my maid saying that the big boss of my piano class there has passed away....it was so shocking as she was alwasy very healthy...then the worse part was tonight was the last night for her funeral...i did not know whether i shoud go..so i sms PApa wong and asked for his opinion...then his reply was : when she was alive she treated you well , you should at least go pay her a last respect.... so i did as what he SAID...i went to SINGAPORE CASKET at around 9 plus... it was like a total surprise for me....Went to the DIAMOND room which her body is resting at ....went in and her son and daughters came towards me and my mother....it was a surprise as they actually remembered me when i did not even know them.... Then they asked me if i would like to take a lok at her ...i walked slowly towards her body.....the minute i saw her body in the coffin , tears came rolling down my face.....it reminded me of how she encourages me whenever i feel like giving up , how she helped me when it is near my practical exam , how she treated me ....She has touched my life and it really had an impact on me .wITHout her , i might not have the grade 8 piano cert....then there was a service held for her.... after the service i left for home at about 12 plus...my heart was sad as it was too sudden..she passed away due to heart attack..she treated most of her student like her own children...

2009-04-04T13:20:00.004+08:00

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fianlly a GOLD...hahax....worked hard for it ...the feeling was super nice hahax..hehex... SYf waws so different from the SYf we had at 2007....so much better ..hahax...When we started playing , it was so darmed nice hahax... with emotions and feelings....After playing went out of the place ...and Celest started crying afraid that her solo was bad ...Actually it was nice ...NO worries hahax..then went back in to hear the other band.....THAN , it was the moment we are all looking to..hahax...The RESULTS.......Then it goes:

BAND no.75 .......
CORAL SECONDARY SCHOOL.....
silent for quite a while...heart was beating like wanna come out haahx...
GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyone started to jump for joy...hahax....scream till the annoucer asked us to scream downstairs ..hahax...super happi...hahax... then i saw PAPA wong also jumped for joy....hahax...also cried hahax....then we went down to scream hahax...the feeling was very nice hahahx... before the result , iwas like telling jodie maybe we could get a gold ...then she agreed haahax....

GOLD!!!!!!!!well done!!!!! the hardwork is worth it hahax..hehex... Love you guys lots......hahahx...but it is kinda of sad that stepping down soon....really will missed you guys especially the CLARINET SECTIOn...hahax..muackxy ...hahax... GOLD!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahax.. hehex...

2009-03-19T17:02:00.003+08:00

14mar -16mar
Went to malaysia for a band training camp..hahax...fun la hahax..hehex...

17 mar
Went to doctor early in the morning to collect my report!!!!!!!!!And i am proud to say that i am healthy....hahaz..yeah......hHAHAX..

19mar
darmed tired .....hahax...hehex..SOBX...I LOST MY HANDPHONEPHONE......should be changing my number again...haiz...really missed my phone....sobx....all teh pictures all GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG...........thanks to dear dear for comforting me..and finding the phone like some crazy person......thank you hahax...might be buying a new sim card ba.....but the money came from him hahahx...hehex.... muaxikc.....love you deep ddep hahax...

2009-03-04T21:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday....
Didnt went to school yesterday ..instead went to the doctor...haiz... wen to take blood and urine test cause the doctor suspect my kidney got problem...haiz...hope not ba....feeling totally lost...guess have to wait till the blood test in out ba...hahax...sianz...then went to band so that i will not miss out....haiz...feel like changing my mind of goingo malaysia...haiz...
Today....
After school went to study , then went to meet my jie(elaine) at ws hahax...went to print photo and buys things for tomoro SPORT DAYS...hahax...went to NTUC hahax....haiz...got to go sleep le darmed tired hahax....still feeling totally lost about what to do!!!!!

2009-02-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

Todae....

feeling kinda down...maybe because of all the things that is happening in class and at home...i just feel so kind of extra...i donknow..but that is what i feel...changed our sitting arrangment in class ..although not with firends bu i think i can study better this way haahx..with elaine at the bakc , labi at the side , desmong at the other side and lastly , wan ling at the front...haahx..maybe this could help..todae went to quarrel with mr yuan...over thing that is not in used...haiz....now feeling down and really very down...really hoping he will be here by my side...haiz...never mind i shall just sleep and wake up earlky for my oral tomoro....wish everyone the best for tomoro.....NITE NITE>>>>

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2009-02-16T16:24:00.001+08:00

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2009-01-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

todae....
haix.... starting to stressed with F&N again and again and again... started school for the 1st week....kinda of boring....but 1st week of school was always teh same haiz.. N you know wat!!!! i had 2 BLUR BLUR form teacher ....i think they have communication problem la aiz... really missed the days with MR LEE ..... without him , like its no fun cause during CME , he some short of cheer up instead of now.....HEEARING THE blur blur nagggggggggggg............ really missed the old 4/4... was really fun...but i know that life has to go on.... never mind after a few months , there will be no more of secondary school. Times already flies fast..1 min you are in sec 1 , 1 min you are in sec 5 and 5 years has past like a flash...hahax....also feeling drifting away from my friends and we are not like before...we are actually so near but yet so far...Finally undderstood wat tats means.....DA JIES!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wan us to be like before!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz... cnt blog liao have to do hw liao haahx..bye bye !!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

hahax.. the before of eating hahac..CHOCOLATE FONDUE

PICtures of me and my dear dear 1

pictures 2

todae.....

yeah!!!!!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!!!hahax...fianlly get the chance to update liao hahax.. miss me lots rite hahahx...let me start by telling you wat i have been doing since holiday ba hahax... firstly , i started working at TOY R US hahax... conbsidered very fun la hahx.. but didnt not take any pictures hahax...hahax.. worked untill now lor hahax... quite3 happy with my Ns hahahx...todae first day of school hahax...as usuall lor hahax...haha to9dae went out with my dear dear hahax... went to take the measurement for the band Syf uni hahax... then we walk walk walk untill we finally found the BUSSORAH STREET...hahax... then like waste time la sianx... hahax..go all the way there just for 5 mins hahax... but after that ok la hahax..l. went to eat CHOCOLATE FONDUE with my dear dear hahae.... next time will go with you guys kk haahx... hheehe .... tokk some pictures hahax... so long never blo9g liao like very long WINDED hahax...lehhahax... never mind hahax... haha... upload the other picture another time hahax...haha..bye bye hahax..

2008-11-21T13:10:00.005+08:00

Todae...

haiz...has been working for the past few weeks ....found out that actually working was tough as i need to do the same exact thing everyday...hahax..but was able to gain experiences such as packing of the goods into nice christmas presents but it is a tough job la hahax...then i work as promoter at the CROCS expo sales at the apparel corner ...all the clothes was very cute la hahax...then , now i am strating work at TOy R US at tampines ahah..working there with elaine hahax.. working as promoter also hahax..siax.hahax..looking forward to it hahax....tell you somehing haahx..elaine almost went into a male toilet ahahx..then luckily the auntie shouted to her in time hahax...o ya , she cut her hair hahax...darms cute wan la hahax...hahax..cute rite hahx... took that right outside the toilet hahax.. gtg alread hahax...celebrating my dear dear birhtday tomoro after training hahax..giving him a surprise haahx... (it is a secret hah..)

2008-11-13T16:48:00.004+08:00

Todae....
HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahax..miss blogging sia hahax...never blog for so long thought my blog die alread rite ahahax.... no la this few weeks have been working hahax.... todae went for briefing for tomoro CROCS expo sales hahax.... going to work there under the toddlers clothes wan ahahx....looking forward to it sia hahax...miss you guys a lot leh DA JIE hahazx....hahax...Strtingwork at CROCS form the 14 nov till 17 nov haahx...then rest for a day then start work at toy r us hahax..WORK WORK WORK.....haiz..never mind la cause of money hahax..wanna earn alot of money hahax...hahax.. i gtg laio hahax..will blog agian when free haahx...love you ...o ya , yesteerday was AgnesLim Da JIe birthday ...happy birthday !!!!(Our heart will always be together ..)

2008-10-25T19:15:00.002+08:00

TOdae ....
Finally , able to blog for a while haahx..busy with training for the work...hahax...will not be able to blog for quite a while hahax... hope everyone take cares of themselves when working ahahx..love you guys hahax..muackx...

2008-10-19T18:40:00.007+08:00

Yesterday(18oct2008)

hahax... yesterday was my little MONSTER birthday celebration and also we celebrated my BIg Uncle birthday as well as their birthday is just 1 day difference....Happy Birthday to you !!!! hahaz...In the morning , went to mac at around 8 plus then met Mr lee to ask him abt math hahax...quite fun...o ya , then mr lee 's wife suddenly came up to our table with 3 cups of milo hahax... me and ridhwan was blur as to know not who is it hahax..then mr lee was like :" MY wife la , you think MAcdonalds so good give free milo meh haah..." we like o ok hahax... darmed funny la haahx...after that went to shop a while then saw mr lee shopping with his wife ahahx..he like wood block lor hahax..then went home hahax..sianz...went home teach my cousin his homework untill 6 plus .....then we headed to my small uncle house hahax... had a lot of fun there...didnt have so much fun with my cousin before hahax...hahax...then sherlyn gave me 2 beautiful dress haahx..maybe next timne i wear show you hahax... i tell you a secret (we had alcohol yesterday haahx..not just 1 cup hahax... ended up a bit tipsy...)hahax... MY Aunties ' hubby was so funny ahahx.. did funny stuff hahax...Then my cousin (MEiren) hahax.. Aaron la needs to go home so onli left me and my sister(sherlyn) hahax.. We like crazy wan lor take pictures hahax... hahax..

o ya , they found out about it hahax..QUEstioneed me when we went to buy ice haahx.. ok la haahx.. the pictures are below haahx...

hahax.. me and my sis pic 1
pic 2
pic 3
me , my sis and my uncle
hahax..last pic of us

Todae..
today was at home all day ..woke up at 11 plus and went out to coffee shop to have breakfast hahax..then went home and it was raining hahax...did nothing ahahx..maybe i just did a job of being a 1 day pig hahax.. kk bloganother time .. byebye HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO ALL WHOSE BIRTHDAY IN THE MONTH OF OCT....

2008-10-11T15:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday...
yesterday was a fun day..hahax..MR NG treat us at ROyal Plaza...hahax....went to nai ma house at 12 plus ahahx... then met the rest at ws at 2 hahax...took the train to orchard haahx...didnt know how to go the hotel hahax...BUt We so clever we found our way there haahx...MR NG and his wife was waiting of us ahahx..so sweet of them hahax....THen started to take our food hahax...fun hahax...then usal thing we took pictures ahahx...i did not have all the pictures haahx... next time then i upload kk hahax...o ya , then also yesterday is ARIF birthday ahahx...HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!! celebrated his birthday at the hotel haahx...don think wrong is at the resturant hahax...Brought for him the rekindles candles haahx...then went to far east to shop...then after a while when to play pool with the rest hahax... iT was fun la hahax.. wetn home haahx.. TAlk crap on the mrt hahax...then went to 7/11 to buy bread hahahx.. ehehe... reached home about 10 plus ahahx..

TODAY
Hahax...So boring ahahx... later going to my grandmother house hahax.. supposed to go ice skating with my cous but did not hahax.. really sorry ...didnt know it was his birhtday ...really very sorry...hahax...ok la i gtg alread hahah...bye

2008-10-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

HI everyone....so long didnt blog liao...hahax.. busy with all the prepration of N levels.....o ya wishing all muslim friends selemat hari raya...hahax...2 more paper then wanna finish alread haahx...looking forward to holidays..then can go find work and earn some extra money ...BUt My conductor wan me to go back for band and here i am not knowing wat to choose whether to work or go for band....sianz....someone help me...hahax...maybe just leave that to after exam....now slank a while then go back to my books liaohahax...gtgliao not enough time to study poa alread hahaxx..bye bye hahax.... i love my guardian angel a lots...... may we can last long..................................muackz<333333333333333333>

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUI PING DA JIe !!!!!!!hahax... hope your wish with your love is granted.....sorry not able go with you guys to celebrate your birthday...MAke sure Next year i will make it a point to celebrate it with you even through you graduated alread.......

2008-09-27T18:43:00.002+08:00

TODAE
hahax..todae went to study with Da jies at Airport at T3..hahax.. reach there around 10 plus then waited for panda da jie to come cause she overslept hahax... know wat ....T3 now got the games frree wan sia hahax... we played the 1 mux touch the button before it goes off...hahax..luckily nobody lor if not will very paiseh wan sia ..hahahx... sweat out lor then so refreshing hahax...then went to NTUC to buy tidbits haahx... thEN nAI MA treated us to lollipops hahaxc..thank you NAi ma hahax...then we went to candy empire ...haha...alot of sweets sia...how good if that was my father shop..hahax..get to eat all the candy i like haahx...b then we brought 1 packet of the prezets ... 1person onli pay 70cents hahax..cheap rite haahx..THen panda da jies came and we went to MAc to study hahax.. When reach mac , we waited untill 12 cause we thought got the promo...hahax.. then when we find out , there was a surprise..the guy who served us is a indian but surprisly , he can speak chinese hahax.. you mux see the look on panda da jie face ..hahax.. darmed funni la hahax.. then after that naima wnna to order sprite then ask desiree to order in chinese hahax.. darmed funni lahahax... Studyed chem , did papaers and there was no 1 to ask when we got question hahahx.. we called almosts all the teacher that was in our phone book hahax....then kena chased out of mac cause the MANAGER say wat cannot stugy lor...sianz.. then we went to the fountain there to studyhahax... then nai ma teach us and tet us our PHYSIC hahax... Manage to finish study ohysic today haah....thank you da jies muackx..love you guys forver......Feeelling t=darmed stressed over everything...wish i could get away from here forveer.....

2008-09-23T17:34:00.002+08:00

hi again hahaax.... today at school quite ok la hahax.. BUt tomo Da jies they all not going to school leh cause got 2 period of F&N . SO boring lor ... but not sure my mother allow me to don go not cause she say she will tell me the answer by tonight ..HOPE can lor...I DON WAN TO GO SCHOO:L...hahahx..today at school keep disturbing Desiree with MR HORSE !!! hahax.. Desiree got new nick liao hahax...MRS HORSE...hahax.. then chem we just do paper lor so sianz.. sitted on desiree seat and guess wat ....hahax.. i fell asleep it was so cooling there lahahax.. fighted back for the fan.....hahax...THE BEST period of all ..but i did not do anything ahahx.. desiree and vanessa did the physic paper hahax... during english period....then recess was here..hahax.. then last period was the most fun wan hahax.. Ao ask mr ong to marry her....hahax.. then Ao keep blushing lor hahax..darm funny hahax... THen we forced MR ong to admit being Ao "HUSBAND" hahax... Headed home and shower and eat lunch..ANd soon head to study hahax.. manage to study 10 chapters of chemisty and also did the physic paper finish...feel a sense of satifaction ahahx...NAi MA also promise if i get good result hahax.. she will treat me to BEns and jerry ahax.. THanks nai ma hahax.. LOVe you hahax.. kk Gtg alread hahax. bye bye

2008-09-21T16:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday
hahax..a picture of my cutecute!!Very cute rite???

haiz..yesterday went to eat dinner with my uncles and auntie .Then all my cousin leave me alone lor..alll last minute don wan to go then i alone so sianz..then after dinner went to leisure park to walk walk ..i tell you the mall has a lot of entertainment activities there lor ..like bowling , ice skating , pool , k box ...and more hahahx...maybe next time DajiEs , we can go there to play ....then after that we head home lor...my sissy brother started to cry cause my cousin get to go to the arcade then he don get to go...So stupid rite always cry!! hahax.. BUt after all is ok la hahax..went home then my brother an d me played with my granfather hp..hahax.. so cool lor ..then i take a picture of my cute cute hahahx...o ya , you know wat not...i can talk till i fell asleep ..so funy rite hahahx..

TODAE

Today sunday alread , so fast lor the week end is over..hahax...Start of the school days again so boring...DAJIES all don wan to go school , i also don wan lehbut my mother don allow ...sianz lor...imagine i 1 person sitting in class...I DON WAN!!!!!!!!!hahax..Anyway, this moring i woke up around 1 plus ..actually is not morning la is afternoon hahax...then go study with my friends at mac...hahahx...After studying for a while , we went to the library to read book and use the laptop...haahx.thats why i get to post right now...hahax..but i benefits the study times as i can ask questions if i am in doubt ....hahax..we saw ao , wan ling they all at mac hahahx...They were also studying...hahax..jiayou....we will promote together as a class......EU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!! Copyighted from PAnda DA jie.....hahahx...GTG LIAO ...BYE BYE !!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-19T17:50:00.004+08:00

ToDae

Yeah!!!!! Da jies , my blog finally up liao.. hahax...opening start today...hahax...Today
in sch was a boring day...but luckily got Da jies to accompany..hahax..cannot imagine sch life without you guys...First period , Mr "Horse" the math class...so sian lor , we went to AVA room then like got no life like that lor...after that then we got Chinese class.That lesson , we see the PANDA DA JIE the movie..hehex.."KUNGFU PANDA" .The show was very funny also , we keep disturbing panda da jie.....sorry da jie...hahax...After that we got ENGLISH...also not bad la, cause got no work..to me , no work always means good..i think Da jies will agree with me...We talked about blog then i blur blur wan don noe wat u all talking about lor...hahax..now i know liao...After recess, got chem, so sian lor ..but half of the lesson , we talked then very fun..hahax... PAnda Da jie always say "Eu can Do it !!!!" thank you !!!!! hehex...Neh Ma bully me !!!!!!!!!!!! But all the credit to her la..hahax..she force me to write wan ahahx...O YA , today is Hui Xiang B'dae!!! Happi B'dae !!!!!!!!! hahax.. gtg liao me neh ma come scold liao..hahax..