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Saturday, 27 November 2010,11/27/2010 12:00:00 am
On 27Nov 2010
, Today had a good talk with my friend... seriously , maybe i am taking myself too seriously !! Thank you deardear for supporting me !! ahahax... i have decided to make my POly life a different level which is enjoyable and enriching !!hahax... for the past few months , i have encoutered a number of things which help me to understand what kind of world i am living in . All this experiences make me realised what are true friends and how a person can totally outcast you from their group for their own benefits ... It seems that only true friends which really care about you stay with you through thick and thin , be it you are sad or angry or even when you are being left behind ! So far , i didnt notice that i am such friend .... I really thought i was alone , but actually i was not .. hahahx... After all this experiences , it make me into a differnet person ..at first , i was badly affected by all of you guys stupid friend , i told myself "why do i even bother to apologise and still stick to you guy?"Than , i found out that actually , i can just enjoy without haveing to suffer in silence...Crying middle of the night , even till the extend of breaking down ...i feel stupid having to torture myself for useless things .... Deardear , what you told me about wasting my time on crying over them ...I finally realised what does that mean !! I have really realised how much time i have wasted on crying... I will become a much better person not going to care much about nonsense stuff...I WANT TO DO WELL AND GET INTO THE DIRECTOR'S HONOURS LIST !! i will prove to you guys whoever is looking on me !! hahahx... i will be more motivated now !!
I love you !! would you cry , if you see me crying ?? Would you save my soul tonight ?? would you be my hero???
Wednesday, 17 November 2010,11/17/2010 12:55:00 am
On 17 nov 2010 ,
haiz.. things have happen till this stage ! i don know wat can i do now.. seriously , why do you even bother to do this crap if you know you will hurt them so badly ! seriously , i hope that you really mean wat you say by not doing again ..Do you know how i feel when i was the first to be pin pointed at when i am not even the 1?? At the time when mummy cried , i don know how to react , this is the first time i have seen her so badly affected. Daddy also . I don know whether you side you or just ignore or help ... everything just down to MONEY !! it really can cause a person to resort to doing anything just to obtain money .. At that time , i really wished that i have money so that i can give to my parents .. i felt useless when i couldn't not do anything but just sit there and listen ... I promise i will one day earn alot of money and repay you for grooming me ... haiz... sian..why does this world uses money which can harm people and causes them to do bad things ..No wonder people say that money harms a person and cause them to be crazy ...haiz... how i wish i can have a world where no money is involved and happiness is always there..
i hope you are here to lend me your shoulder to cry on..really lost !
Hello. I'm Rachael. I'm going to be 18 years old. I love him.