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Tuesday, 14 September 2010,9/14/2010 11:25:00 pm
On 14 sept 2010, Thought that i can meet you since you do not have school... but end up , waited till 2 plus when you finally wake up .. Didn't meet ... Its'okay since i thought i could have just waited for another 2 days where we can have fun ! End up , at night , you asked me if whether the zoo trip could be cancel ... Do you know how much my heart was in pain at that time ... I told you before if you cant do it , don do it !! Remember the previous time where we just gave away the movie tickets , how much i was in pain and how i told you i don wished for it to happen !! WHY !! Why must you do this to me !! Fine , maybe i was being selfish but i cant seems to just forgive you ...Maybe i need some time .. This is like tearing open the wound that have recovered ! I have a mixture of feelings , whether to angry , disappointed , sad.... I don know !! i really don know ! Why am i even wasting my time crying over it !! I feel that i am being played around like a stupid thing ! It really feels terrible !! WTH am i thinking !! Thinking of the different food that i will be making , how much fun , so many pictures to take !! It seems that my dream has just been dashed , i seriously don know when to believe you ..Maybe you might think that i am selfish to only think of myself but i have waited long enough ... Neo prints , Zoo outing , Picnic , Rollerblading ... So many things that we once said we were going to do but was lack in time ... Now ?? So much time but .... maybe i should just forget about it ... I truly don understand you ... When do you really say what you mean ! God , please lead me i seriously don know what is there for me to do ...... Cried...You have hurt me deeply this time =(
Hello. I'm Rachael. I'm going to be 18 years old. I love him.